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I was put on a litany of medication that exasperated my epilepsy. Prozac Keppra mirtazapine and a few others. Those meds prescribed by my psychiatrist (except Keppra) made me gain weight and stay depressed 24/7. I decided to treat my epilepsy myself. I got a medical cannabis card and I have been seizure free for almost 2 years. My old medication made me extremely suicidal and unproductive.
I hate it when people say that it is just 'a season' and that the way we are feeling right now is only temporary. I've been suffering with depression for 6 years now... I'm still waiting for the season to end...
“It gets better”
That’s what everyone says because they don’t want to believe that people die and get hurt
People don’t feel good enough are not selfish
If you try to commit suicide and you are alive after it it show you are needed and wanted but for the people that die they wanted so bad so when they got the chance they took and they took it hard
I remember I used to cut myself and my first I cut myself I said “this is what I deserve” DONT CUT YOURSELF. DONT COMMIT SUICIDE. If you have suicide thoughts please please go see a councilor or a therapist. Sometimes it’s better to talk to someone you don’t know personally and I swear on my life that it helps.
Actually it got worse. Now instead of being poor, I am homeless. Now instead of being neglected, I am abused. Not a soul I knew or loved would help, listen, or even just respond... so no... For some of us, it gets worse. Where do we go when it gets worse?!
Your skin is not paper don’t cut it
Your face is not ugly so don’t change it
You LIFE is not a movie so don’t end it
There are a lot of problems in this world but if your strong enough you can change them
probably none read this but anyway i been struggling with depression for over 5 years and i think about suicide everyday and if that wasent enough i think about self harm everyday too i have no idea how to cope it i can barely hold it off and keep going.. i have been in hospital for months before i havent changed really.. i only trust one person talking how im doing where i meet every 2 week
i live in group home where ppl are everyday i dont talk with them how im feeling and i have epilepsy and i escape from group home at night to avoid the medicine and i think i dont care if i get epileptic attack i hope i die is what i think
Before my attempt, I tried to reach out for help at times. I told about 10 people about my thoughts. People's responses ranged from "shut your mouth", "don't talk that way", to telling me we would talk "another time". Idk how everyone was so surprised when I OD'd. I still feel hopeless 😩! I hurt my kids terribly though... I can't undo the things they saw and felt. Please ask for help yourself, people just are afraid and uncomfortable to talk about our issues like this... it's easier to look away for most
When I hear about someone dying from cancer or something similar I always ask “why them? Why not me?” I’m sure they have so much more to live for and people who will miss them. I wish I could trade bodies...
Fear saved my life. My life hasn't been the normal American life. I had no car and had to wake up from 4 in the morning every day to get on the bus to go to school. I always felt sad and displaced, like I had no talents because I wasn't really good at anything. When ever I were to fill out the doctor sheet for appointments my mom would tell me to lie about my emotions on the sheet so that the doctors wouldn't think there was anything wrong. But she didn't know there would be some days where I would go to the window sill and get the cords and wrap them around my neck because I felt like I was no good. Then the fear of going to hell because it was technically murder caused me to stop. I am a Christian and I am glad because if it weren't for this, then I probably wouldn't be here. My relationship with Christ strengthend every time I think about the times I would. go to the window.
Whether religious or not you matter and are of value to this world. You can do this. And if you think you can't, listen to some music.
Sometimes I would be like, if I were to die then I'd miss the next album! Anything to help you want to wake up the next day is good.
i attempted suicide bc i was heart broken, n when i would open up to my “friends” they would push me away, only one of my friends actually helped me but i pushed him away bc he always chose them over me. i would always go around campus being called annoying, n that nobody likes me. i would start fights w/ ppl bc of the countless name calling that i would deal w/, i started loosing friends, n started losing the feeling of joy n excitement. all i felt was numb n alone. i started cutting, n attempted to hang myself w/ a belt n tried to stab myself w/ a kitchen knife. now at 16 (abt to turn 17 on tuesday) w/ amazing best friends that i could ask for n an amazing gf. i just hope for the better, n for those struggling keep your head up. understand that dark days like this will make you a better you, i’m sorry if i can’t help you physical, but understand that suicide is permanent solution to a temporary problem. God loves you n so do many more, God Bless♥️
I go to school and am ridiculed for my weight and my academic capabilities even by my so called friends and even my cousin I feel like I am a useless burden and have thought of jumping out of my rooms window too many times I want one day where someone says you are loved my parents are split up and I have a ok relationship with my sister and brother I don’t want to worry my mother or father I don’t know what to do i feel lost
My younger brother stays with my aunt in Pakistan I'm still in Paris the place I was born and I live with my 2 younger sisters and twin brother I have to take care of them more like they take care of me
So he did I went into a coma for 2year I went into a coma in 2012 and came out in 2014 my heart collapsed on a Friday at 11am 4days before I woke up my brothers found out they went and prayed their Friday prayers they went home waited for everyone to leave and they killed themselves 4days later on a Tuesday I woke up God saved me my younger brother older brother and twin brother were so happy they all jumped on me
I tried suicide more than 50times since 2017 if I had listened to my older brother and twin brother they both killed themselves i was 9 when I first tried to love someone I wanted to marry her my older bro and twin told me to stay away she's had for me I didn't listen what happened a few months later she excited her plan which was her brother pushing me off our 2 story building where our grade 4 class was
I work for emergency services and a lot of the calls I respond to are to people struggling with their mental health and suicidal thoughts. It really angers me when people say stuff like "they only do it for attention", when in reality, it took every last bit of strength they had to call for help, to talk to a complete stranger what they've been battling with, to admit they need help. Remember, you're not alone. If you don't want to talk to your friends or family, please talk to someone, whether it's a crisis line or even Emergancy services.
im 12 I feel useless in choosing my GCSEs this year I want to do something to make a difference like a paramedic, doctor, freighter, a child psychiatrist or a music therapist
sometimes I feel useless but my friends help me drown that feeling away sometimes it takes a long time others barely anytime at all but I always leaves you just to find real real friends who are willing to help
The point of living is have to experience and the biggest problem in our lives is our negative thoughts we can feel ugly, feel not smart or, feel like u don’t deserve to live but some people just end it there because they feel they have had enough of there experiences but we get feeling sand thoughts confused u feel ur this or that but that’s not a feeling it’s a thought and that negative thought causes u to feel a certain way and causes u to have a certain behavior it’s always a chain
When helplessness comes in your way and family is the source of the burden then suicide attempts has been my comfort. Three hospitalization and many thoughts my burden is my existence is unreal. But no one in my family ask me why I am so hurt. It's because I say you play a role of being selfish to not accepting the tears I cry out in front and in silence you won't let me heal to be once connected of who I have loved and always cherished the most before myself. My family buries burdens me on how much they love me in the mist of this but we keep going in circles plays games with each other's feelings and emotions and have torn up hearts because their is no accountability. This is my accountability you might not agree but I have made efforts by talking crying love selflessness and now I am at this last step because you see nothing wrong with you but me wanting healthy as you cause pain and homelessness through every discussion and attempts. You all keep holding me down to stay in pain. Even though I hold myself accountable in this. I hold you accountable every misleading conversation of lies you say you love me when you really didn't. I asked for help. Your acknowledge was that open door. But you closed it again and again. Pain + homeless = Suicide
There was this one girl at my old school who killed her self and I told some of my new friends at my new school cause the topic just randomly came up but she did it on a tree in her back yard and she hung herself. they all were like “oh she did it for attention” “she wanted people to feel bad for her” but really that girl would get bullied every day she would cut herself everything and I really wish I could of been friends with her but we never talked.
I've been depressed since I was 10, and every day I've wanted to just end the pain, but I'm so scared that it'll hurt, that I can't bring myself to end it. I don't know how to be anymore and honestly, I just want the pain to stop, just once.
To whom it may concern,
Depression is such a cruel punishment. There are no fevers. No rashes. No blood tests to send people scurrying in concern. Just the slow erosion of self. As insidious as cancer. It is essentially a solitary experience. A room in hell with only your name on the door. The only way out, is to end the pain. End the constant battle. I believe there is no cowardice in suicide, but strength. We tell children that when a loved one dies, they are in a better place. But we crucify those who choose to end their own lives. Why? Because we are ignorant to the pain that they feel. We don’t consider the thoughts that may run through their mind.
Here’s a look into the mind of someone who has chosen to end their life. If you feel guilt, after reading this... that is because you were one of the people who implanted some of these thoughts. Hopefully you will learn to be better to others.
I have to force myself to wake up in the mornings. I have to force myself out of bed, and into my clothes. I say force because there is no desire to do anything. My first thoughts in the morning aren’t “What can I do to make today better than yesterday?” But “Why didn’t I just slip away into eternal peace last night?” The pain stems from a number of factors.
One factor is, the constant thought that I am not good enough. You can tell me all you want that I am. But when your actions and the way you treat me contradict everything you say... It is then, that I know I am not good enough. They say actions speak louder than words. When your actions consistently leave a person drowning in pain and self doubt. Your words... mean nothing.
Another factor is the fakeness of the people we live with, talk to, and interact with daily. People who claim to care, but when they are needed most, they turn their backs on you. Depression is not easily hidden... if you look close enough you can see the pain and self loss in someone’s eyes.
Someone asked me if I was okay. I replied with my typical “I’m fine, just gonna keep pushing through.” And they responded with something unexpected. “You don’t have to lie to me. I can see it in your eyes that you’re not okay. Unlike the others, I will do everything in my power to change that.” To that person, I say “Thank you for caring... if only it wasn’t already too late.”
They say suicide doesn’t end your pain, it just passes it onto someone else. To that I say, you have no right to feel pain. When for years, you did nothing substantial enough to ease mine. You just added to it. “Everything will be okay” they say. And they are right... everything will be okay. When I’m dead, and my pain is no longer felt. I will be okay. I no longer fear what comes after death. Because nothing, can be worse than this.
Goodbye... until we meet again.
Love, always and forever,
That was my suicide letter... written the day before my last and final attempt. I’m so glad I survived.
My crappy life in text...
I've cutted my self several times. I hate my body. I hate my face and everything.. No one falls in love with me. My parents just say it must be puberty I'm a late bloomer.! I have been bullied. I have only one bestfriend... My light to my life.. My only person i nearly even trust anymore.. And its falling apart too. She cutted her self too.. Even tho she lies to me.. I love her.. We shared our depression stories. But she nearly even texts me and she doesn't take it serious anymore.. I got my depression this year. I started to cut this year.. Its inpossible to hide. I lost 4kg in 3 days. I nearly ate anything in those 3 days. I wish i could be like the other girls.. It feels like you fall in deep darkness and the only way to stop the darkness is end it by jumping off the rooftop.
To say "it gets better" is the biggest lie I still tell myself right after I ask myself "Why didn't you just prevent this when you were 16 like you said you would." When I get like this I will find any and every reasoning why it won't but always bandaid myself with a "It gets better, you'll be okay, or this is temporary" cause that's what I know all too well others are going to tell me anyway. I'm fine right now, but so many others aren't and I'm sorry I dont know how to help other than to pass the same bandaids I give myself. I'm by no means promoting suicide, I'm 25 now, but suicide is a something I have strong opinions about and I wanted to be honest.
I was on the buss to meet some friends and it didnt go well...
There was this 30 year old man who sat on another place who was gonna GO off at his stop when he went to my Seat and sat next to me, he blocked my only exit...
Everytime i looked at him he was winking at me trying to flirt with me and I’m only 13 and I was scared because when I was gonna pretend to go off the buss because my friends were gonna go on I had to talk to him to get him to move he did he walked right behind me I almost fell on the buss he tried to catch me... when my friends were going on I ran to the back of the buss with them behind me so I knew he wouldn’t come after, I didn’t tell anyone... it’s been around a month since that happened and its terrifying to go on the buss everyday to get to school.
What do I do? If I see him on the buss on the way to school I’m literally gonna cry and skip school, and what if that really cute guy in my class sees me cry at the buss stop?! That will be so awkward!
Idk if I should tell my parents or not it’s been a month since it happened they will most likely say ‘’Get over it, it was a month ago’’ or something like that...
I have successfully killed myself 2 times, I was in a horrible place in life, I was 13 I was gang r*ped. People told me it was my fault, or I should have been wearing my hearing aids so I would know something was wrong. I cut my wrist and died twice in the ambulance they revived me but I feel like I didn't deserve a second chance
One of the best movie quotes ever is when Dumbledore said "words are our most inexhaustible form of magic, capable of both inflicting pain and remedying it." And this truth will never fade. Never underestimate the power of your words. Use them to build each other up, not tear each other down. Because "while we come from different places and speak in different tongues, our hearts beat as one." -Dumbledore
A friend of mine killed himself recently. I felt guilty, sad just plain terrible. It came out of nowhere. He was 14. He was the type of person that never wanted to show it. The average person would have never guessed. He was a really good guy. He suffered from depression. If you need help call. Please do it. He didn’t. If you ever think about doing this call 1-800-273-8255 your not alone
I've thought about suicide before. I have no close friend, not a good family relationship and I've lost interest in many things I've loved before. I told my parents about my thoughts but they didn't do anything really. I'm always that lonely girl at school and it's something I don't like. I always feel alone but when I get close to someone I'm afraid they'll leave. I was close to doing it once but I stopped just saying to myself that everything will be better everything will be better. Idk how I've kept myself alive even throughout the things I've been through. and no I'm not diagnosed with depression so yeah just a fact.
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